And the radioman says that women were a curse.

I'm back to not trusting my intuition. I wanted to jump in head first with this girl, but I know what a good relationship and a bad relationship should feel like. Something was not right, and I ignored it.

It turns out that one of my oldest friends helped make those cookies & Banana bread. Because he's been dating KM too.

In fact, unbeknownst to me, I'd been helping KM cheat on him since November 1. I don't see B very often, and no way was I going to bring her up with him, since they were close friends, and to my understanding, attempted to be more than that for a short time.

When she was off drinking with her volleyball buddies, she was with B. Or me. Depending on who she was telling it to. When I showed up to one of her volleyball games, the jig was up when I ran into D and started talking. He knew something I didn't know. 10 minutes after I left, I got a breakup text from KM. She still wanted to meet in person...this is where I got the treats.

Given our history, I wanted to take things very smoothly with this girl. I didn't press any issue, and take things delicately.

What really irks me is that I was dating several girls before she decided to cheat on B. I gave up potential relationships with at least 3 women. Before you make conclusions, I was not dating any of these girls seriously, but had the option to, and as casual as things were, I felt pretty rotten dating them because they were all really nice girls. But Yes. I gave up endless opportunity for what my emotions, probably driven by hormones, were telling me.

On hormones: I've been reading Sperm Wars, which is about evolutionary biology as it relates to human sexuality. Baker states that from the primal mind's perspective, it is best if a male can reproduce and trick another man into raising his offspring, so he can proliferate his genetic information as much as possible. The women's side of this is even more riveting . This is the impetus behind Sperm Wars, but I'll let you read it yourself. It's pretty wild stuff.

On Infidelity: Incidentally, there's tons of talk about infidelity in Sperm Wars, and how it is way more prolific that you might think it is, and why. I discussed this with KM all the time and KM seemed to eat this up. She even told me that she wanted to borrow my copy. You'd think that she might be torn up with guilt.

All contestants will recieve these lovely parting gifts.

At least she broke it to me while giving me cookies & banana bread she baked for me.

So yet another relationship down the hole. Funny how they always start with "you're an awesome guy, but...."

That actually means "I'm trying to keep you from making a big stink about this, and that might happen if I tell you flat out I don't think we're compatible."

I've always been a person to forgive and give people a second chance. Maybe that's a weakness to some, but it will be a strength when the times comes, and someone will appreciate that in me.
I'm really bothered by how history seems to repeat itself and I end up dating women twice. Before, that was a sign that I wasn't ready to commit, and a girl gave me a second chance. Now, it's me being the forgiver. I'm wondering if one of these days the third time will be a charm. Or perhaps....the first time?

In the mean time, I'm going to go out and kick some ass on the ski slopes.

First weekly Tri club run.

Gear West Tri club started it's first weekly run today. After a intoxicating night out at King & I Thai and the Local, I made it to the Lake Harriet Bandshell at 8am this morning. I was only planning on running a loop at Harriet, but it sounded like everyone was going to do 6 miles, so I caved into peer pressure and did a loop at Calhoun too. I was chitt chatting with one of the Karens while we held a 9 minute/mile pace around Harriet, and then I grabbed some sports drink because I was stupid enough to go running without water in my water bottle.

After stopping to fill, I ran over to Calhoun, now by myself, and picked a direction to run. I was pretty sure everyone was going clockwise, so that's what I did. I ran into the fast runners going the opposite direction around the far side of Calhoun, and they told me that they were going backwards to pick up the last people & run back with them. I passed everyone behind them, also going the opposite direction.

Anyways, running alone made it difficult to hold a 9 minute pace, and I was continually speeding up. I spent most of Calhoun at an 8:30 pace, and ended up finishing around 8:10.

My goal is averaging under 7:00 minutes/mile in a 10K by this summer.

312

Today it took me 21 minutes to get home from work. It typically takes me 40+ minutes to get home, but they just opened the new 312 highway in the southwest, and my commute has decreased by a 20 minutes or more now, and about 1 mile. I'm also up to about 90% highway miles, so I should be increasing in economy too.

Not quite sure what it will be like in the morning, since I do have less traffic to deal with typically, but I'm pretty excited overall.

I'm sore

So I've been XC skiing 3 times in the last 4 days. This is the first time since last winter--probably in the late February timeframe.

XC skiing is unlike any other sport. It requires tons of coordination, balance, and strength...at the same time as being as cardiovascularly demanding as trail running.

Right now, I'm trying to retrain all those little balance muscles that I haven't been using all summer, as well as other muscles that just don't get as much use. I did start dryland in early November, but it hasn't done much for me.

I've been trying to get 1 hour workouts in right now, but it's sooo difficult. Your muscles just get so sore. I have been resorting to poling in the Classic track when my legs are sore, and free-skating sans poles when my arms are spent.

Anyways, I'll probably be spending 5-6 nights/week at skiing at Clifton French Park in Plymouth until the Birkie. French has some decent trails for hillwork, and the Birkie, which I haven't completed, is 52km of hilly pain.

See you there?

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So I'm sick of myspace, but want to keep my blog. This is where it's going.

Edina digs out.

This morning I look out my window to see my entire neighborhood shovelling their driveways, and clearing their sidewalks. Many of these people have probably lost equity in the housing slump.

I went out for pancakes.

Everything is just about right

I went running this morning
the snow is flying outside
I'm wearing a sweater, sitting on my couch, drinking coffee & baileys.